Monday, June 09, 2008
Nitro ( final chapter)
Nitro did a lot of thinking during the night. He knew his cancer had spread and he was only going to get weaker. He wanted to leave his kingdom as he had arrived. On his own 4 legs. He didn't want his kingdom to see him dying. He wanted them to remember him as a strong caring and loving king. Nitro didn't meet mom the next morning for breakfast. Mom went over and helped him up so he could eat. Nitro and mom looked at each other and they both understood. Mom finished her morning chores with tears and sadness. She got her camera and took some last photos of her precious Nitro. Mom tried to take Nitro for one last walk down the road so he could nibble on the leaves and they could have some time alone. Nitro didn't want that. He jerked the leash from mom's hand and ran back to his goat family. Nitro wanted to spend every minute he could with Diva before he left Hidden Haven for the last time. Through tears mom told Nitro that she would be taking him to Southern Oaks Animal Hospital at noon. She gave him a good brushing and told him how much she loved him. She told him how proud she was of the way he took care of all the animals in Hidden Haven Kingdom. She told him she was so sorry she couldn't make him all better. She told him how he would always be in her heart and that his life would always be wonderful memories never to be forgotten. Nitro understood when it was time to go. He hated to leave his sweet Diva. He wanted so badly to stay strong and brave but couldn't help but cry out as he left Diva for the last time. Mom wanted to be able to talk with him on the way so fixed a place for him in her van. She took the seats out of the back and made a bed of straw for him to rest on. As they went down the road away from Nitros kingdom both of them were crying. Nitro leaned over moms shoulder and she scratched his head while telling him again how sorry she was. She started sharing some of her best Nitro stories with him. Reminding him of the fun times they had had together. Of how caring he was when he would watch over the babies at night for Diva. How she knew he didn't like wearing her funny hats but he did just for her. Mom told Nitro that out of all of Hidden Haven animals he was the strongest, most loving, most caring, most gentle and told him thank you. The trip seemed to go quickly. When they arrived mom had to leave Nitro alone for just a few minutes. She went inside to find out where to take him. Mom came back out and opened the door so Nitro could get out. Together they walked inside and down the hall with their heads held high. Some of those people didn't know they were in the presence of a king. As mom and Nitro waited for the doctor she scratched his head for the last time and told him again how sorry she was and how much she loved him. When the doctor came in mom put Nitros head in her lap, gave him a kiss goodbye and rubbed his check as he took his last breath. She removed his collar, thanked the doctor and went back to Nitro's kingdom. There will never ever be anyone that can take Nitro's place. Though mom's heart is breaking she knows Nitro has crossed over rainbow bridge and is with Sweet Pea. They are well and happy now and they are watching over Hidden Haven. Nitro knows his kingdom is sad but he wants the memories of him to make smiles not tears. He wants his human family to remember the pushing games and funny hats. He wants that whenever someone thinks of him a smile will come on their face. He ruled over Hidden Haven with happiness and always made sure to bring a smile to everyone.